The book that TRULY made the Difference

"When you're home by yourself you're behind enemy lines."  That use to be a quote that I could relate to. I am a stay at home mom and being home alone was the perfect time to binge and purge to my heart content.  I have been suffering with ED (eating disorders) since I was 12 years old.  33 years of my life I spent focusing on when I was going to eat, binge and purge or restrict.  In those years the last 22 of them I spent binging and purging.  My form of purging was general vomiting and on occasion the use of laxatives.  I may have had a few b/p (binge/purge) free days but on those days I would restrict.  My weight loss was never too extreme, but that really doesn't matter in the whole scheme of things.  March 22nd 20012 was a big change for me.  I started to treat my bulimia as a habit, to me, much like smoking.  To break a habit, you don't really have to deal with all the other things that people say you have to do before you really recover.  A great book that totally made sense with this whole idea was Brain over Binge by Kathryn Hansen.  She over came her binge/purge cycle by not listening to her negative voice.  That is what I did and I have been b/p free with no slip up for 17, today will mark Day 18.  I have not binged once since I started this new approach to binge eating. So this is where my journey started and it has been really easy to beat.   I have wanted to get better for years and years, I have told myself, next time or tomorrow too many times to count. Now, I am in control and it seems to be really easy.  I am very optimistic at this point and very happy with the progress.