Quit Bulimia as you would Smoking

When I went in to Nursing School and did my Psychiatric Module I was under the assumption that the only way that we developed psychiatric problems was do to hormonal imbalance, abuse, low self esteem and other such stuff.  What did I learn about Bulimia, all the layers that had to be healed and fixed before I could even attempt to work on a cure.  (I actually didn't believe it, although I thought I had to believe it to get better.) I thought about what triggered my eating disorder, was it my mom's obsessed with thinness, or my dad also obsessed with thinness? Was it a picture when I was 9 or 10 and I had baby fat that made me look (to me) fat? Was I looking in the mirror and had a bad body images - the mirror lied?  I believe now, that all these things occurred that probably helped me believe that being bulimic or restrictive in my eating would make me thin, and therefore perfect. Did I forget to mention that I also need to please people, that I like to be the best at whatever I do - oh yeah, that might be part of it too.  But to quit Binge Eating and Purging as the book 'Brain over Binge' by Kathryn Hansen said, I just needed to stop binge to cure the rest. Removing that should put me in to recovery. After 33 years, a Diploma in Nursing, testing to make me an RN and a Doctorate in Naturopathy with herbal concentration should at least allow me to make an educated guess.  My educated guess is that stopping the binge will cure me - it won't fix all the other things, like low self-esteem, but it will stop the cycle and that is really  all I need to heal.  I can say on Day 19 that it seems to be working, and it is improving my issues with my self-esteem - I am certainly feeling confident.  My secret, I am ready to quit!!!  I believe it is like a cigarette, I no longer want to be bulimic, I no longer wanted to smoke and I quit, I no longer want to be bulimic and with both - I know I don't need it.  Tomorrow will be a bigger and better day!!!  Dear Reader, please don't think that I am having a non-stressful week, I am dealing with the biggest stress in my life, it is not an excuse to become healthy.  Hugs to you all :)