First off, I have been binge/purge and restrictive free for 3 weeks. I noticed through my recovery that many people talk more about their troubles than what they really have going for them. Talking to my sister yesterday also made me realize that I am truly blessed, and although I make mistakes and have crappy things happen here and there, my blessings out weigh the catastrophes every time. I think during my recovery using my positive voice instead of listening to the negative one has been the most beneficial for the success of this recovery. Last year was really the first time I had ever tried to recover from my eating disorder with no luck because I still found all the negative things in my life, and I didn't look and listen to the positive. I think that one little change did the world of good for my recovery and has made me realize that there really is a cure. I don't feel like I am going to relapse, I have had some pretty stressful things happen to me that would have normally caused me to be heavily in my binge/purge world, but I am not, and really don't think I am going to go there again. I have found that since I eat when I am hungry that I don't feel the need to binge. My body is not in starvation mode and I don't feel like the only way I can satisfy it is with a binge. I conditioned myself to be like that, now I make sure I eat before I start heading out in the world. I listen to my body, I listen to a lot of music, and those things help me realize that life really is the blessing that it should be. It pulled me out of a bad cycle that I created. I hope you all have a great day and start counting your blessings.
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